|Rheu: "Go away and quit bothering me."|
Reasons are many - I've gotten burned out on a lot of stuff lately, some of it because it's been so frutrating (LFR I'm looking at you >.>), and some of it because I was just trying to do too much too fast (pet battles/collecting *cough*). I'm still enjoying parts of it well enough, but I end up getting bored fast.
- Rheugan has become incredibly difficult to play, since whenever I'm on him (even if it's just for a few dailies) I wind up trying to get inside his head and figure out what he's thinking. And frankly, he's been stupidly depressed lately - and my own depression has just been making it worse. I have a feeling that I know what it'll take to "fix" him, at least temporarily, but I'm still not sure if I want to go that direction with him...
- RP in general has been kinda meh lately. Not that there isn't stuff going on, but there's not much that's really affecting my characters. And the depression has made it hard to get into anything, anyway.
- I am tired. No, I don't mean I need to sleep more (although that'd probably help >.>). I mean that I have no energy, physically or mentally. My workdays have consisted of digging up enough gas to get through my shift, then pretty much collapsing at my desk and not moving until I go to bed. My days off are mostly just spent recovering from work, which means sleeping late and taking everything easy. And I hurt. My joints haven't given me this much trouble for ages, and I'd just kinda like it to stop.
- My schedule at work has gone crazy. One of the higher-ups got the "brilliant" idea of letting a computer decide schedules, instead of having the department managers write them. This means that everyone's schedules have been flipped around and changed up, and mine is no exception. Fun fact: I've worked the exact same schedule each week for over a year. My internal clock has gotten so used to this that I'm having a super-hard time adjusting, and this is just the first week, which makes it worse. This week, for example, I have 2 shifts that are early, but still not the time that I'm used to. The other 3 shifts are all late, from 12:30-9:00pm. Which means my brain is telling me it's time to go home when it's really not even my lunchtime yet. To top it off, the screwed-up times are making it hard to sleep well at night.
I will get through this, I just need some time.
In the meantime, I've started playing Star Wars: The Old Republic again. Haven't resubbed, but the FTP account is good enough (though some of the restrictions make me want to /headdesk). My Imperial agent's story has sucked me back in, and I'm having fun on my Sith Warrior and my two Jedis. I've been looking at the Mass Effect series too, even found a free demo on Steam, though I'm not sure yet if I want to spring for it. In other words, I'm keeping myself occupied when I'm not at work or sleeping.
And I gotta say, the Sith warrior's starship might be the prettiest in the game. >.>
|My SW Valkogo and his companion Vette in the foreground, getting their first look at it. XD|